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snail trail... here i am sitting online on a saturday nite because i've fallen of the drinking bandwagon. i need to suck it up and get back into drinking...this is ridiculous. i'll force myself to drink shots and kick my own ass when i don't... i had a whole entry to add a couple days ago, but lost it. so i was pissed about that. it was basically about the fucked up dreams i've been having. one was me carrying sheets of acid for someone in a wallet and then being in a back seat of a car with amanda when all these cops pulled out. i started to panic having all of this acid on me and i had this asthma attack (i really don't have asthma). anyway i couldn't breathe and then amanda just started screaming and i couldn't get her to stop so i could calm down. then i woke up and was scared. then i had a dream i called her and told her about said dream...so i figure i should call her soon. last nite was fucked up too. i had the reoccuring teeth dream in a addition to a dream about my mom letting a wild baby bear attack me in ryans bed and telling me it's "just playing" when it's biting my legs all hard through the covers. i need to lay off the crack before bedtime. i miss my mommy though. i miss everyone at home too. i wish i could come back and visit soon. but who knows. everyone just come visit me when i move to the new apartment..ok? just pile into a mini van or something...all of you...and drive here. okay...i'm sitting in ryan and anthony's apartment alone. this is weird i'm never alone. i'm not sure if i like it. when we move charlotte, you can't ever leave me alone for a nite...i'll drive myself batty thinking someone is gonna break in and kill me. as if you being there would stop a killer from savagely killing me. happier thoughts. oh i went to see finding nemo yesterday. VERY good movie. i give it a gold star and a pat on the back. i love the fish that ellen degeneres does the voice for. she cracks me up. if you go to see it just wait for the "i speak whale" part...i was laughing so hard i cried... +The Last Five+ |