|
|
|
|
+I Am+ |
i want to go back things are just crazy lately. i've been packing, working, and going to class. today my mom called me and told me that she got married. i act like i don't care, but i'm not sure what to think of it all. both my parents are remarried now, but with my dad i really didn't care when he got remarried. i mean i really don't see him much anyway. but my mom...wow. i've always been strongly attached to her. it was so hard for me to leave for school because i was afraid of leaving her. almost like i was the one taking care of her. and now it's like both my parents have these other familys and i have 2 new stepsisters that i really don't know. i just feel like my brother and i have just been left and there they are with their new familys. i know we are grown up. but it just seems so strange to me. this happens to a lot of people i'm sure, but it's just kinda hard to accept. the feeling just kinda hit me today after the news. also lately, i've been reading through this notebook that 4 of my best friends and i used to write in from high school. it was from 6 years ago, but it still feels like maybe it was only last year. and i wish i could go back. i want to see them every day again and i wish we were all still close like we used to be. i've changed and i'm not sure if it's been for the best. it seems like i used to have more fun back then and everything was easier. it feels like everything is going so fast and i'm moving so slow. i dunno, i need to stop now. +The Last Five+ |